My name is Donna Clayton and I am also mentally ill.
I made it through most of my life thinking I was an alcoholic. I would binge drink(whilst manic).
I had my first episode july of 2011. It lasted ten months. some time in jail and a whole lot of crazy. I needed no sleep and all I wanted was cigarettes and powerade and of course hang out with all my friends including God and Jesus. Towards the end I was smelling Hallucinations. If you looked Irish I smelt cabbage, ect.
I am schizoaffective bipolar 1, so schizoaffective hallucinations and bipolar Psychotic features at the same time.
Manic Mania. I had acute mania by the time I got to hospital. took me 3 wks to somewhat stabilize and another month out to realize what I had been seeing, hearing, feeling and smelling was not real.
The loss in the bipolar fire was great. No place to live, no money and no one that could really understand what I had just went through.
Traumatized for life, shame, embarrassment and I was the crazy lady walking around my area doing crazy hand gestures and gods work.